For All of the Logic....My Feelings Still Are Louder

I keep trying to understand why I feel so sad this week

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And then I remember the humanitarian crises that are unfolding all around us.

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Not just now but all the time it seems.

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Heaviness in the collective can also highlight your already tender spots.

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And you might wonder, “why is this bothering me so much?”

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It might feel unreasonable to *still* have feelings or to have such *strong* feelings about something—especially if you thought you had already moved on.

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But that’s not how it works sometimes, often even.

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Sometimes, there is no amount of logic or spiritual practice or reassurance to make a feeling go away.

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The only thing that really soothes me is feeling the beauty of what is.

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I think of all of the books and poetry that have been written, the paintings, the films that have been made, from a state of passionate, unrelenting emotion.

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I feel community in knowing that the sweet suffering of a non-linear healing process is probably the most human thing there is.

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If you’re feeling heavy, how can you see this as your art? And if not as art, how can you see it as just OK and not a problem to be fixed?

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Finally, if it helps, rather than try to change yourself and how you’re feeling, what gifts can you offer the collective?

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Squeezing you so tight, Veronica